Lonely

I feel so lonely sometimes and for no seemingly good reason.

Things are going well. We are both moving ahead with our individual recoveries.

But I feel lonely today. I feel as if I am unreachable, unassailable, isolated, on an invisible island watching everyone else live their lives. I can’t connect. I can’t understand. I don’t feel understood.

I’m swept away on a tide of fantasy imagining a magical life, a world where I can relate to the people around me, where I am adored, respected, loved.

What’s the evidence that I’m not any of those things? There isn’t any that I can think of. It’s just how I’m feeling today.

Maybe I should just go home for the day and try to anchor myself back to the real world or wait until I can get back to it.

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